Author: Eternal☆Waking☆Beauties

I'm an intuitive reader and healer. Qigong, yoga, meditation, and readings have transformed my very existence. I feel most at home in nature surrounded by animals. My greatest gift is that of compassion, and my goal in life is to constantly fulfill my soul and help others do the same.

New Moon in Taurus April 22, 2020 (4/4/4)

The Sky Chart

Sky Chart by Cafe Astrology, Photograph by telescope, Edit by Eternal Waking Beauties

This New Moon is bringing action and ingenuity to how we are deciding we want to build our solid foundations. The lovers (Mars & Venus) are still in Gemini (Venus) and Aquarius (Mars) bringing a meeting of the minds. This is bringing mental clarity as we are receiving our 20/20 vision. We are able to clearly see the big picture (our goal, our endgame, our dream, our best life!), while focusing on the details needed to attain our vision. Aquarius is helping us plan, strategize, and see everything through to fruition, and Gemini is researching, questioning, and making sure we are making all the most informed choices. Our dynamic duo and mental clarity enhancing our vision will ensure success!

Infinite Universal Oneness by Debora Postado

While our heads and our hearts are aligning Aries is bringing a catapulting energy propelling is forward on our path. We are no longer asking for what we want, we are moving toward what we want. Our energy has shifted and we see the light at the end of the tunnel. As it grows, we become closer to stepping through the threshold separating us from our destined life. We are thinking and communicating with love and passion as the fire billows from our heart.

The sun and moon sit together in Taurus as we are illuminated to the process of tactile work, fun, and play. We are using our senses as they heighten our experience. The sun is showing us how utterly beautiful the world we exist in is, and we are allowing our creativity to soar!

Artwork by Lucent Jane

Our subconscious mind (the moon) and conscious mind (the sun) are reminding us of all the good times we had and fun games we would play as kids. While with family and friends we are introducing our childhood pastimes with our current loved ones. Whether you enjoyed baking cookies with your grandmother or playing sports with your friends, we are using our senses, we are enjoying what it means to be human, and we are appreciating our experiences.

Numerology

444 Angel Number by Kari Samuels

Based on Numerology we have a blessed day in our midst (4/22/2020) with another 4/4/4 this year. We are focused on building our solid foundations while also receiving help from others to co-create our reality. This help can be from friends, family, our highest selves, angels, ancestors, Mother Nature, and evening the universe!

22 is the master builder and gives us the tools we need to create stability, security, safety, and structure in our lives. 22 helps us toward fulfilling our divine life purpose. 2020 was mentioned earlier as 20/20 and another solid 4.

Life Path 22 | The Master Builder – ajudahstrology

The reduction to 3 (4+4+4=12, 1+2=3) speaks of growth, expansion, being social, communication, on top of the holy trinity, mind body spirit, the 3 Dantians, among other symbolism. This is a powerful number and brings fortune.

We are moving forward toward fulfilling our dreams. We have all the tools we need and vision to clearly see our goal and how to get there. We are also receiving help from others as we remain aligned. Our foundation, our creativity, our action, All we need now is to continue taking one purposeful step at a time toward achieving what we have always wanted – sustainable happiness.

Om Mani Padme Hum.࿆ૐ

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Super Full Moon in Libra April 7, 2020

Photograph: Unknown, Image: Source6, Edit by Eternal Waking Beauties
 
The Super Full Moon in Libra on Tuesday, April 7, 2020 is all about balance, balance, balance. We are coming to a time and place where we have worked on ourselves, we have worked on relationships, we have worked on how we think and communicate, and now we are working on our foundations. The year of 4 brings about stability, structure, safety, and security. The full moon in Libra is the FOURTH full moon of the 2020 year. So it makes perfect sense that it is bringing balance and harmony to our world, our lives, and our very beings in this existence.
 
According to the sky chart, there will be an even amount of divine masculine and divine feminine placements in during the full moon. This is balancing our yin and yang qualities. Yin is our divine feminine – dark, cold, soft, receptive, going within, subconscious while Yang is our divine masculine – light, hot, abrasive, giving, taking action, conscious. We are being asked to balance these two dichotomies that exist within us to create a perfect blend creating peace and harmony in our inner and physiological worlds. When we do this we are able to create an ebb and flow of energy circulating through our meridian system creating a balance of our subtle bodies.
 
This is extremely important, because as we do this; we are able to live a healthier and happier life.
 
Is this not what we all strive for? A chance to be healthy and happy? Well, we can do it with a little balance in Qi/Chi (energy, life force, prana) through a number of practices. One way to do this is through yoga, Qigong, Tai Chi, mediation, and other meditative movement practices that stir our Qi and get our life force going.
 
One beautiful side effect of these practices is balancing our Chakras.
Image: The Center SF

There are many techniques used to cleanse, balance, and align chakras. Yoga, Qigong, Tai Chi, meditation, sound baths, mantras, mudras, food, herbs, essential oils, crystals, pendulums, and other divination tools. I will be posting an article about the chakras and the many how to’s. 

A few of the effective methods I have come across that are relatively simple are:

1. Prayer – Pray to Archangel Metatron and ask that he use his sacred geometry to cleanse and align your chakras bringing them to a balanced harmony with themselves and each other. Allow yourself to relax and breathe deeply during this process.

2. Pendulum –  If you own a pendulum, program counterclockwise to be cleansing and clockwise to be drawing in purified, balanced energy. Move the pendulum counterclockwise above each chakra (starting at the base and moving to the crown). I typically begin the momentum, and then let the pendulum stop when the cleansing that needs to be done is finished.

After each of the chakras are cleansed, move the pendulum clockwise above each chakra (starting at the crown moving to the base). Breathe deeply through this process and visualize the color of each chakra (crown: violet, white, third eye: indigo, throat: blue, upper heart: turquoise, heart: green, pink, solar plexus: golden yellow, sacral: orange, root/base: red) as the new, purified energy is drawn in.

3. Creative Visualization – Anyone can do this! Visualize each of your chakras one by one starting at the base. Imagine a red glowing disk of energy about 3-5 in round moving fluidly and emitting a vibrant light. Continue this with each of the chakras according to their assigned color as described above. Once you are finished, imagine that they are all in alignment and there is a pillar of light reverberating every color of the rainbow connecting them all.

4. Meditation – this can be guided, silent, or with a sound frequency tuned into 432 hz or another divine hz frequency or singing bowls in the background. There are many ways to access these various meditation aids through YouTube and the app Insight Timer.

Any of these practices can be enhanced with the use of crystals that align with each of the chakras, mudras, mantras, the application of essential oils, burning of herbs, and any other techniques you have picked up along your path.

I strongly suggest cleansing your body by taking a shower before jumping into these practices, and cleansing your space by burning sage, palo santo, or incense such as Benzoin, doing a pendulum clearing, or crystal clearing if you own a selenite wand. These tasks will provide a clean and fresh space to assist in enhancing the experience of your practice. 
Image: Josephine Wall

Once we are able to balance our inner worlds we will be able to see the balance occur throughout our outer worlds. This massive shift from 3D to 5D is occurring to all of us as a collective. This is creating chaos as the two try to balance and exist on the same plane while our vibrational frequencies upgrade. Libra is here to help balance the scales within each of the spheres of our lives.

Family, friends, career, romance, relationships, finances, health, well-being, spirituality, creative endeavors, learning, each of these take up time and space in our lives. To find a healthy balance is to know what works best for you. Some people need to make a concrete plan with steps, alternative routes, and achievable goals, while others dream big and flow through their day. Whichever method works for you, utilize it at this time. 

It is important to trust our intuition and know when to act, receive, dream, create, plan, and relax. Moving along with the energies and trusting what you are feeling to do will lead to greater progress than fighting the current. This is how we find balance. Focusing on one sphere at a time, and remembering to take breaks and go easy on ourselves.

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Aquarius Image: TeePublic, Photographs of Mars and Venus: Unknown, Gemini Image: Unknown Edit by Eternal Waking Beauties

Our divine feminine planet, Venus, rests in Gemini as our subconscious downloads the extraordinary amount of 5D information: learning, researching, studying, and multi-tasking, while our divine masculine planet, Mars, sits in Aquarius bringing goal setting, detail-oriented, step-by-step, cause and effect planning as our form of taking action. We are experiencing a meeting of the minds. 

What a beautiful combination this is going to be as divine thought turns into divine action. Right now we are in the middle of the process as we balance what we are dreaming and how we are going about doing and manifesting it all into our physical realm. We are taking everything we have learned and creating piles of what we want and what we do not want moving forward. From there, we are taking the pile of what we want and creating a plan about how to achieve exactly that – our dreams and goals! 

Enjoy this process and know your plans are you taking action! We are at the BEGINNING of our fool’s journey, of our soul’s path, of our divine purpose. Keep visualizing what you want your life to look like, keep feeling how satisfying it is, and make the plans before taking the next steps. 

Our journey awaits. All we have to do is be present. 

 

Om Mani Padme Hum.࿆ૐ

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Spring Equinox 2020

Eternal Waking Beauties Spring Equinox 2020 Reading

Hello Eternal Waking Beauties, and welcome to Spring 2020! This is an intuitive reading for the collective for what we will be experiencing as a whole for Spring 2020 (March 20 – June 19). This is the beginning of the seasons for us when life comes back to the world, and new beginnings are born! It is time to Live Your Purpose!

Spirit of the Animal Oracle

Ram – Perserverence

The first card from the Spirit of the Animal Oracle is the Ram – how perfect as we are entering Aries season! We are being asked to persevere for we have many gifts and there is no problems that can withstand the power of our minds. With patience we can reach the mountaintop as long as we do not give up good luck will follow!

Penguin – Authentic

Underneath the bottom of the deck we have Penguin which asks us to be authentic with ourselves, others, and the world. We are to reach out to our tribe – our soul family – as we find ourselves in times of need. Family gives strength to face the storm. It’s time to love our uniqueness and we are full of surprises! Break free from others expectations and JUST BE YOURSELF!

It is easier to persevere when we are in alignment with our truth and our highest selves which allows us to remain authentic.

Sacred Rebels Oracle

6 – Shock of the New

The next deck I was drawn to was the Sacred Rebels Oracle. The card drawn was “Shock of the New” (#6 – supreme nurturer). We are going to be in awe of the new that comes to us this spring as we align with our upper heart chakra (purpose), throat chakra (truth), third eye chakra (clarity), and crown chakra (connection to the divine). These are going to bring about new ideas and inspiration letting us clearly see our authentic, unique souls! When this happens we will begin to witness the new all around us and everything that we can create!

25 – Release the Dark Wound, Let Love Live

Underneath the bottom of the deck is “Release the Dark Wound, Let Love Live” (#25 – 2 – balance, harmony, relationships; 5 – change and transformation 2+5=7 – enlightenment, spirituality, higher understanding). Our shift and change will bring about a balance and harmony of our spirituality and higher selves as we let go of past wounds, hurt, pain, suffering, and traumas allowing them to heal through forgiveness so we can allow love to permeate our lives. This is the work we need to achieve alignment with ourselves, with our authentic form, with all our truth and purpose within so we can experience the shock of the new within and around us. What a beautiful time!

Nature’s Whispers

9 – Perfect Setting

The next deck I was drawn to us the Nature’s Whispers oracle deck. The card drawn was “Perfect Setting” (#9 – endings, completion, humanitarianism). This card is saying we have everything we need within and around us to create the perfect setting to live and create our dreams, desires, and purpose. It is time to be the master manifestors of our divine destinies! Keep up with the perseverance of being able to release the past which is blocking the achievement of our future so we can get to the creation of all things aligned with us and our highest vibration.

36 – Intuition

Underneath the bottom of the deck is “Intuition” (#36 – 3 – divine, holy trinity, 3 dauntians, mother, maiden, and crone, body, mind, and sprit, earth, nature, and the universe; 6 – nurturing; 3+6=9! – endings, completion, humanitarianism). We have another 9 confirming we are coming to the end of a cycle to begin again! (Purity ring!) We are to follow our intuition to guide us to paint the masterpiece of our perfect setting to come into the new aligned in love after healing our stagnant past persevering to our authentic true selves!

Paulina Cassidy Tarot

Ten of Pentacles

The ten of pentacles is here to tell us of success!!! We have created abundance and prosperity for ourselves in the material, physics realm with all of our newfound authenticity, love, alignment, intuition, perseverance, and co-creation with spirit of our perfect setting. It has allowed us to enter a place of receiving for all of our hard work. We are being blessed this spring for a job well done!

Ace of Cups

Next we have the ace of cups which is a realization of a newfound bond and relationship with our emotions creating a happy and harmonious existence. Again our hard work is paying off and allowing for more stability, understanding, and acceptance of our emotions. This is going to help us release the dark wound and let love live within us and throughout our lives bringing back balance and harmony of our emotions.

The Hierophant

The hierophant brings us new wisdom, spiritual guidance, and a divine connection with source allowing us to receive downloads that connect us with the higher truths of the universe. This newfound wisdom is going to help us remain in alignment, remain in our truth, remain in our authentic uniqueness, remain in this space of love, remain intuitive, remain confident and understanding of our gifts to persevere as we create our perfect setting to live our our divine life purpose.

Nine of Swords

We have another 9! Definitely look up this angel number as it is an integral part of our spring 2020 experience! The 9 of swords is showing us that something is trying to hold us back whether it’s our mental blocks or old patterns that are no longer beneficial or still holding onto the memory, the moment, the person, or the situation that is keeping us from moving forward. We have not been able to heal or forgive and it is bringing stagnancy from living our purpose. We must forgive and heal this part of ourselves or another in order to continue on our path.

Seven of Wands

Underneath the bottom of the deck we have the 7 of Wands which shows that we are perched on a ledge protected by our spirit guides from everyone below trying to reach us, trying to lower our vibration, trying to bring us back down! We have ascended so high we have elevated our vibration and ourselves to a place and a space where we can no longer be touched by those lower vibrations. We can’t even see them! They aren’t even in our scope of view! We have risen above the bs and there we will remain!

The Numinous Tarot

Three of Candles

The next deck is the Numinous Tarot which is a beautiful display of inclusion and representation. The first card is the three of candles or wands in most tarot. This card is lighting our way to our purpose, our passion, and our success. It is paired with the 10 of pentacles suggesting that our path is lit bright and clearly for us to follow to gain material abundance on the physical plane so we can have more than enough to fulfill our purpose. How exciting!

6 – The Lovers

Six is another number that is sticking out! Please look up the angel number for more guidance and insight for this spring season! How beautiful!!!! The lovers is paired with the ace of cups! Once we are able to release the dark wound, the pain, the suffering, the hurt, we are able to let love live and that love is going to be for ourselves, for others, for everyone, for everything, for the world, and for the cosmos! We are going to experience love on a whole new level as we embark on the beginning of our seasonal year in spring! I absolutely ADORE this lovers card as so many people are represented and included in this all encompassing love from a PURE HEART! We all possess one Eternal Waking Beauties! Open your heart to love so you can give and receive pure love freely!

1 – The Magician

The magician is next and is paired with the HIEROPHANT!!! Omg what a deliciously perfect pair!!! Not only do we have all of the knowledge we need to create this perfect setting, create a new within and around us, connect with and trust our intuition, know our authentic selves, and realize our gifts to persevere, but we are also THE MAGICIAN! We have all of the tools we need to be successful in all of these endeavors!!!! We are master manifestors! We are alchemists! We can create our hearts desires, dreams, and purpose!!!

Six of Vials

ANOTHER SIX!!! The six of vials is the traditional cups or chalices suit. The six of vials speaks upon looking back and reminiscing with nostalgia especially when we think fondly of our ancestors. This is going. To help us with the nine of swords. When we are having moments of mental strife, self doubt, frustration, and lack and fear mentalities we are being asked to reach out to our ancestors and call upon them for help to rise above and get around this old, stale way of thinking that is blocking us from achievement and success with ease. When we are aligned and get into the vortex things come with ease and flow in such a way it’s almost surreal. Our ancestors will help us get back to that space so we can realign again, get back in touch with our intuition and authenticity, and get back to creating the perfect setting to illuminate our path toward success.

The Dreamer of Tomes

The dreamer of tomes is similar to the page of pentacles or coins in traditional tarot. We are in a dream state! We are dreaming of our goals, desires, purpose, and futures. What do we want to create, where do we want to find success, what feels best and aligns with our higher self with our truth? So many questions and we are seeking out the answers with joy and deliberation. Our intent is what is going to help us realize our dream that ignites is with a fiery passion creating sustainable happiness and peace.

2 – The High Priestess and the Queen of Pentacles!

The seven of wands slid off the bottom of the Paulina Cassidy tarot deck to reveal the high priestess! She is the magician and hierophant combined! She has all of the ethereal knowledge and spiritual prowess of the hierophant combined with the tools of the magician. She knows how to use her tools and manifests what she needs for her divine life purpose!

Under the high priestess the QUEEN OF PENTACLES revealed herself! She is well of financially. She has stability, safety, security, and structure because she is abundant and prosperous on a material level in the physical plane. She has her checks and balances. She knows how to create, how to manifest, and how to receive. We also had the 10 of pentacles! Both of these cards signify WEALTH! This is long term, lifetime, generational WEALTH that is here to stay and here to last for the long run! Your passion and your purpose is going to fulfill you and yours for this LIFETIME AND BEYOND!

Bottoms of the decks for our Eternal Waking Beauties Spring 2020 insight!

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We are all Eternal beings of light forever Waking to the Beauties of life. It is time to LIVE YOUR PURPOSE! Peace & harmony family! ☮️☯️

Om Mani Padme Hum.࿆ૐ

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Leo Full Moon February 2020

Josephine Wall “Heart and Soul”

This full moon in Leo is igniting the fires of passion in our hearts. It is asking us to be open to receiving our divine calling at this time to gain momentum on aligning with our life’s purpose. The lion within our hearts is ready to roar beckoning us to listen to the vibrations of our very being as we make the ultimate shift.

Be open and ready for change as we really begin feeling the shift we have strived so hard to achieve. We are literally switching tracks and taking the first steps toward realizing our dreams. Manifestation is easy at this time while we are honored with Venus in Aries.

Venus in Aries “Passionate Heart” -EWB edit

This creates an assertive vortex as we approach the portal leading us to our destined lives. Our Cardinal Aries heart gives us the courage to dive head first as the Leo moon sustains us with strength and loyalty. This loyalty resides with our very souls faithfully moving forward.

Our journey is one of nurturing as we cultivate our dreams into reality. The sun in Aquarius helps us see our plans clearly revealing one step at a time. This helps us remained focused and steadfast. We create best in the present as we allow our intuition to guide us.

Pisces holds our intuition and is helping us dream bigger at this time. We are on the brink of coming face to face with our higher selves and destined lives of purpose, love, peace, and harmony. There’s no better time than now to believe in ourselves and what we are capable of. Butterflies bring the expansion of ideas and fantasy leading to beautiful creations for the world.

Blended edit by EWB “Cosmic Dream”

We are going above and beyond climbing to the next level of existence. From our state of being, to higher understanding, clarity of consciousness, raising our vibrations, sitting in our truth, settling down in our hearts, finding respite in our souls, and breathing pure life.

Whatever you feel drawn to at this time – do it! There’s no more holding back. It is time to live life to its fullest and embark on the journey you were created to live. There is a whole world out there waiting for you to join in on the splendors ahead. Be open to receiving.

The blessings are bountiful and coming in many different forms. Let go of the parameters and constructs of what could happen or what you expect. These gifts are perfect for you, and may not be what you expect. Receive them anyway. Remain completely open and grateful.

Om Mani Padme Hum.࿆ૐ

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Virgo New Moon 2019

“𝑬𝒂𝒄𝒉 𝑵𝒆𝒘 𝑴𝒐𝒐𝒏 𝒃𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 𝒂𝒏 𝒆𝒙𝒄𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒄𝒂𝒍 𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒇𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒆𝒏𝒆𝒓𝒈𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆.” -𝑬𝑾𝑩 ⠀

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The past 2 years we have had a lot of Artemis and Amazonian archetype Virgo New Moon energy. This has brought forth powerful, courageous warriors with a nurturing heart. This year the Virgo New Moon blesses us with a different type of feminine energy. That of our Native American ancestor, Grandmother Spider. She wove her web to create the universe and is granting us the same energy to create our own worlds. Right now we are manifesting something great for the rest of this lifetime. Who’s going back to school? Who just switched careers? Who just got married? Who is expecting a baby? These are major shifts that we are manifesting to create the trajectory for the rest of our lives to fulfill our life’s purpose. ⠀

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Grandmother Spider also created the Earth. We are being compelled to make changes to protect our earth, our home. With everything going on in the world such as the Amazon on fire, Indonesia on fire, deforestation, plastic waste, and other atrocities, we are being called to be the saviors of our planet. Whether we choose to donate to a non profit that works toward fighting for our earth, volunteering to plant a tree, cleaning up garbage on our daily hike, or lowering our own waste production, now is the time more than ever to act upon that urge. A little goes a long way, and out environment is a reflection of ourselves. Who are we as a society? As a collective whole?⠀ ⠀ ⠀

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Lastly, Grandmother Spider created the four branches of humans – yellow, red, white, and black. She tethered us all together with her sturdy silken web to remind us we are all connected to each other and the universe. It is time to strengthen the bonds between each other, and upkeep the connections we need in this lifetime. Try to hold compassion for one another as we move forward with our destinies.⠀

✨💞🌏🕸🕷🕸🌍💞✨ ⠀

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Om Mani Padme Hum.࿆ૐ⠀

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What they don’t teach you…

⚠️Warning: long post where reading is necessary. Pregnancy complications will be discussed. Trigger warning for anyone who had undergone these conditions.⚠️

When getting pregnant we don’t hear a lot about all of the misfortunes and symptoms that come with prenatal conditions.

Some we hear about are miscarriages – pregnancy loss of natural causes before 20 weeks, gestational diabetes – when blood sugar levels are too high during pregnancy which can actually lead to preeclampsia and can be fatal, and depression – postpartum to be exact which occurs after the baby is born.

Maybe some of you are more familiar with others such as placenta previa when the placenta covers the uterine wall which can cause painless bleeding during the second and third trimester, however, hospitalization and birth problems can occur. Or what about placenta abruption? Where the placenta separates from the inner uterine wall and can be so severe the baby will not be able to receive oxygen and nutrients to survive.

This is not to scare anyone out of pregnancy. This is not to say everyone will have to survive through one of these conditions while pregnant. This is just to educate. Because I had no idea about what an ectopic pregnancy was until I lived through it.

I had never heard of it until my doctor kept saying we needed to check for it. Ectopic pregnancies are when the fertilized egg implants itself outside of the uterus. The egg cannot survive and can cause serious damage to nearby organs. Apparently it’s so rare that it’s not something that needs to be worried about. Except, it can be fatal.

I had only known I was pregnant for 2 weeks when I went in for my first ultrasound and they couldn’t find anything in my uterus. I was sent to radiology to see if they could find anything. I was told I was fine and that I could go home. Once home I called the doctor for the results the radiologist technician wouldn’t clearly give me just to say, “I’m not sure why they told you to go home, but you need to come to the emergency room immediately. It’s ectopic on your left side.” We left for the ER.

Once there we were admitted with ease. The doctor did her due diligence to ensure we were taken care of. A clueless doctor, nurse Jackie, and 4 hours later we were told the doctor was in a Caesarean Section Operation so another doctor would be administering the shots of methotrexate that is used on cancer patients. Wait…what?! Apparently it’s in its most diluted form but it reduces the amounts of folic acid in the body which is what a healthy fetus feeds upon.

I got the shots and was allowed to leave. I had to come in to get 2 more labs done to watch hormone levels over the next 7 days. (One had been taken earlier that evening). There was still a chance of rupture that would cause excessive bleeding or severe abdominal pain in which case I would have to rush myself to the ER.

Not eating anything with folate or folic acid for a week was difficult. The American government injects folic acid into practically everything to lessen the chance of birth defects – cereal, noodles, wheat, (beer included), rice, everything. It naturally occurs in leafy greens (and all vegetables at levels I couldn’t eat) and fruits (minus apples and blueberries). I was limited to meat (I had just begun to eat meat more regularly and was considering stopping again), dairy (milk, yogurt, and certain shredded cheese makes me sick), and chocolate. Needless to say I felt disgusting and was already breaking down my body’s health system.

My next doctors appointment had cleared me from eating garbage the rest of my life. I was in good condition and was told to take it easy over the next 2 weeks since anything could still happen. I had felt fine aside from the dietary regimen. I was also still trying to process everything that had happened over a short 3 week span.

After another week passes and everything still feels alright and my life is busy with work, I decide to get on a spin bike. As I spin, I feel it. I felt the rupture. I felt the blood filling my abdomen. I grabbed my things and told my boss I was going to the ER. I was asked if I needed a ride and said I was just heading over there and it wouldn’t be long.

I called the ER, told them I was on my way. I called my husband, asking that he come and be present. My head started spinning and my hands and arms began to go numb. I told him I felt like I was dying. He told me to pull over and call for an ambulance. I got into a parking lot and called 9-1-1. The paramedics were on their way. I turned to grab my purse in the backseat only to find that was not possible in this state. I just kept breathing.

I could hear the ambulance. I was asked my name, what was going on, if I had insurance, and which hospital to go to. I requested my purse be grabbed as I answered their questions and we headed toward Roseville.

The pain was so tremendous I couldn’t recline. Every little breath, touch, or movement shot pain like I never felt throughout my entire body. Finally we were there, my mom was there, dad was in the waiting room, Freddy short after. We waited for a room, finally got a nurse, finally got pain meds. I was knocked out.

When I woke up I was near radiology for an ultrasound and the meds were wearing off. I asked for more. The doctor realized I was a lightweight and only gave me half. The radiology tech couldn’t believe how sensitive I was. Before I knew it we were back in the room waiting. Thank God for pain meds.

The doctor who just started her shift was reading up on me then came in explaining the surgery that was needed. Depending on the severity I would need one or both Fallopian tubes removed and/or one or both ovaries. There was a possibility of never being able to have a child again.

I went to pre-op right away and met my anesthesiologist and nurse who would be in the OR with me. Once in the OR I was instructed of all things to lie flat. The one thing that hurt the worst in all my life. I could feel fluid rushing up into my chest suffocating my lungs as I writhed with pain. The anesthesiologist gave me a dose of numbing magic shortly followed by the general anesthetic.

I woke up surrounded by my husband, mother, and father. And of course, there were popsicles! I was in surgery for 2 hours. There was over a liter of blood in my abdomen that they had to clean out. Half was put back into my body. I had my left Fallopian tube removed with the blueberry sized clot. I was filled with air, but the meds were still kicking. I was sent home.

While home these past few days I have had trouble sleeping, getting up and down, walking, going to the bathroom, basically everything. Little things like coughing, sneezing, crying, and laughing are the most painful sensations I can experience.

It’s been 4 days and I was hoping to be recovered to the point of returning to work already. The doctor said to take it slow – up to 2 weeks in fact. I also cannot try to have children for another 4 months due to the methotrexate they injected me with.

Not being able to do every day tasks alone is unsettling. Knowing I could have died is even more surreal. The fact that all of this is happening still hasn’t fully registered. Now it is all about being patient with my body and allowing myself the time and space to heal.

My heart goes out to anyone who has to experience anything relatively similar to this and I would not wish this experience on anyone. Please don’t feel sorry for me. That was not my intent. I just wanted people to know and be aware of what can happen. If someone else out there is experiencing this or has experienced this, my heart is with you and I don’t know your exact pain but I can relate.

Women are strong and resilient mentally, emotionally, and physically. Our partners who stand by our sides through all of this are loving and incredible beings. All of our other loved ones who are supportive and present never cease to amaze me. Thank you to everyone who has been loving, kind, and supportive through all of this chaos that I am living. I appreciate all of you, and feel loved.

Spring Equinox and Libra Full Moon 2019

Josephine Wall “Joie de Vivre”

R E L E A S E

Have you gotten used to the ebb and flow of releasing and accepting yet? Do you feel as if you are undulating in the vast sea of life as a single tendril of kelp clinging to the ocean floor while reaching for the sun? Yet we are so expansive in our own right within our existence. Keep moving with the ever changing current as the only thing you hold onto is your solid footing on the earth’s surface.

Can you feel the last remnants of hurt, resentment, and suffering flake off? Or did it peel like a separate layer of skin? Did it reverberate as a burst of energy shot it out of your very soul? Some like to release it to the moon, others to the earth.

Whatever works for you is how it was meant to be and it is alright. These releases come in many forms. Anger. Tears. Written words. Music. Dancing. Singing. Meditating. None is better than the other it just is. The sooner we accept ourselves and our process, the easier it is to let go.

Learn from your mistakes.
Forgive others for theirs.
Accept your emotions and how you process.
Practice healthy ways of being.
Let go and let love always be the answer.

M A N I F E S T

It began as just a flicker, and now it is a flame. It’s is billowing and glowing inside of you and expanding out into the universe. Keep fanning the flames of your heart and follow your passion. Let the light of your soul shine bright as you glide along the path you desire to tread upon. You are on your way to manifesting your purpose.

You have done it all along, and now you arrive at your conscious epicenter of your soul creating what you have always desired. A life you love. Soak up the rays of your own lights beauty and bask in its radiant glory.

Welcome home to the body you once felt was so foreign. Welcome to the life you have dreamed of for all these years. Welcome the power that has been awaiting your presence. Are you ready to manifest your greatness?

B A L A N C E

Last year, 2018 (2+0+1+8 = 1+1 = 2), was all about balance and relationships. We worked on how to balance all of our many facets of life such as work, school, family, friends, hobbies, sports, eating, spirituality, and self. As we learned what works and what does not work for us, we were able to create a schedule that allows us to have a balanced life. With relationships we learned how to put up boundaries, cut ties with those who were toxic, and cultivate those that were healthy.  So it’s kind of perfect that the last full moon of the winter of 2018 and first full moon of the spring of 2019 was in Libra.

Libra is our sign of balance and is ruled by air craving the need of understanding and knowledge. They are ruled by Venus so everything is done with love and passion. This full moon in Libra has helped us with the final release anything that is failing our sense of balance with our spheres in life, and any relationships that are hindering our growth. Letting go of these past constraints has been done in a gentle, loving manner so we can move forward into our first true days of 2019 as we enter spring.

E X P A N D

The spring equinox fully launches us into 2019 (2+0+1+9 = 1+2 = 3). The year of 3 is a time of great expansion, growth, travel, sociability, and creativity. We are being inspired to embrace our true form and extend it beyond ourselves into the world. As we shine our light, we are beckoning others who vibrate at the same frequency toward us. This is going to be an amazing year of making deep, solid connections and friendships at a soul level that will last throughout this lifetime.

As we expand our horizon among others, we are going to also expand ourselves to visit new places we have never explored and soak in the beauty that surrounds us on this earth. When we travel we learn how to survive, embrace other cultures, and see the world through a whole new lens allowing for inner growth as well!

This year also challenges us to be creative. When we create we are playful and are able to manifest many beautiful things. Maybe you’re inclined to create music, dance to express yourself, paint to share your vision of the world, write to expose your true feelings, speak to inspire others, or cook to show your appreciation and gratitude for food and your body.

There are so many ways we can be creative whether it is in our day-to-day work, seemingly daunting tasks such as cleaning (which can be fun!), or our beloved hobbies that enchant our souls. No matter what it is that calls to you, do it! And do it with love.

Om Mani Padme Hum.࿆ૐ

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Mercury RX in Pisces 2019

Josephine Wall “Ocean of Dreams”

D I S C O V E R

This mercury retrograde is all about uncovering the true thoughts of your soul. What have you been suppressing and hiding from? Well, it’s about to all surface in a big way. Be prepared to feel tired, unhinged, and impatient as we explore the deep facets of our true form.

We have heard whispers and felt inklings of tugs and pulls this way and that the past 2 years of mercury retrogrades. We began at the surface as we fell apart, and now we are digging deep headed straight to the root of our problems within this life. Get ready to be soft, gentle, and kind to yourself through this process. There may be crying, yelling, cursing and a number of uncomfortable reactions as we bring this all to light. But that’s the purpose, right? To be light. To feel light. Both the warmth and brightness of the sun, and lifting the weight from our core to allow us to physically lighten as we let go of the heavy burdens of our past.

F O R G I V E N E S S

This word has a special meaning for me because I was able to forgive others, but never myself. Right now we are healing through this forgiveness of our decisions and everyone else’s that has caused us to hold onto these moments, these actions, these words that have caused us so much pain. As our bodies tense up at each of these memories we become more dense restricting oxygen flow as we slowly torture our bodies.

B R E A T H E

Let go. It’s okay to forgive. This process is not easy and you need to know that. Be patient with yourself when you don’t get over everything right away because that’s not how life works. Maybe there’s nothing that surfaces for you right away, and you don’t understand who you’re supposed to forgive. It will come. We need this so badly right now so we can fully enter the year of 3 at the beginning of the zodiac year on the day of the Spring Equinox.

Take your time.
Get your rest.
Cry your heart out.
Heal your soul.
You got this!

Om Mani Padme Hum.࿆ૐ

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Pisces New Moon 2019

Are you ready to see yourself for who you really are? Or are you still in avoidance of your true form? Your soul has been watching and waiting patiently. Eager to shatter every idea you have about yourself and the world. Ready to break free of the constraints and limitations that have been holding you back, keeping you stagnant, and burning you out.

Can you hear it calling? Can you feel it’s warm loving embrace? Can you see your true reflection of the effervescent beauty that is you? Are you ready to invite your higher self, your true form, your soul into your consciousness? Are you ready to let go and allow all that is meant to be come to fruition? Are you ready to have the life you have always desired in exactly the way you need? Are you ready to embrace your purpose and live it every single moment for the rest of your life?

Take a deep breath. It is all going to be okay. You have so much power. You have so much love. You have so much truth within you ready to grace the world with your unwavering presence. Allow your light to shine and your heart to follow. Embrace who you are for it is exactly who you are meant to be.

Om Mani Padme Hum.࿆ૐ

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New Moon in Scorpio

Antahkarana – Spiral of Spiritual Illumination Energy

Can you feel it? Your rebirth is towards the stages of completion as you emerge in your new truest form. Have you noticed? The vibrant sensations of cleansed and pure energy! This past weekend we experienced an extreme download that shifted us in the final moments of transformation. November is a time of manifestation and balance in numerology since it is our 11th month. This paired with the new moon in Scorpio, the new cycle of years as we wind down the year of 2, and Diwali (the Hindu Festival of Lights as we shine light across the world to break through the darkness) is really allowing us to move into our new (real) form of conscious beauty. It has been a long time coming, a process, hard work, and quite the journey. Embrace this new feeling, this new perception, and this new life for it is the one you were always destined to live. Blessings have been occurring in many shapes and forms this month, and we are to be grateful for each one as we give thanks. Scorpio is all about death and rebirth and the new moon is a time of birth and beginnings. Have you been healing and growing and allowing the grueling painstaking process to move through you? If you have, this is a beautiful time for you and your life. Have you been begrudgingly forcing things to remain the same and resisted every opportunity for change? If so, this will be a difficult and tumultuous time. It’s okay to let go. It’s okay to surrender. It’s okay to be vulnerable. It’s okay to allow life to be as it is. It’s okay to be accepting. Everything will be okay if you allow it to be. Enjoy this beautiful time eternal waking beauties, for it is our time of sustainable happiness and contentment as we embrace our true form. Blessings be with you and may you be filled and surrounded by light and love!

Om Mani Padme Hum.࿆ૐ

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